it takes every ounce every single ounce of my being not to shake not to claw not to tear and rip not to scream not to unleash the person that i truly am life is masquerade and you don’t want to be the one to tear off the mask when the little dance ends
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runaway
i want to run away i will send curses to the earth that bore me and return to the sky that loved me
i remember every time
i will sacrifice all for you before you even sacrifice a fraction for me
mother
you ask if i remember i do, i remember the day and year i lost the woman who carried me in her body and birthed me into this world i barely remember her looks but i know she was more beautiful than all the stars in the night sky i barely remember her voice aContinue reading “mother”
sleep
i let you sleep that night when everything was crushing me a suffering beyond the point of recognition and i simply stared darkness right in eye i shouldn’t have let you sleep i should have begged you to stay awake and try to save me
lies
you know living for someone is a l i e people disappoint, make mistakes, and only think for themselves trust me, i know so as i try to live for someone you will see this scarred form of flesh live but you will watch this beautiful mind die
selfish
i don’t understand if i am being selfish as i write these words in the end they are all about me complaining about myself and others i am being selfish and it a terrible thing a terrible emotion that makes me hate myself selfish, yet again
sad truth
death is easier than life
in the end i have no one
you have him to go to when everything goes wrong i am happy for you but there is a dark part of me that burns with something horrible i am selfish and greedy and remember it all you have him now to cry to but i remember when you came to me and i cameContinue reading “in the end i have no one”
relapsed
water cascades harsh light bounces off steamed mirrors a hand picks up a blade and relapses again
a poet's confessional 