i am an outsider amongst powerful women who’s voices are among the angels who are powerful in emotion and singing i came late to this group an outsider i feel even though they do not tell me that i am i feel it especially when they speak of the others who appeared with me lateContinue reading “outsider”
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new year’s resolution
this new years i will not lie to myself and give false hope nothing will magically change as the calendar changes no matter how much I will it to be i will remain in this cursed house with my drunk father with my echoing thoughts and no one to understand but i will try iContinue reading “new year’s resolution”
mutual
dear 2019 i walk to you unprepared your predecessor left me a changed woman i became stronger in the beginning and remain but in your first moments i come to you suffering and broken there is no tears but my heart aches and i can’t breathe but you know, i will fight on another dayContinue reading “mutual”
fiction
i must accept the reality before me i must sit each day and accept but in the night i deny and deny i live in fiction to hide the pain
i am giving myself redemption
you ran out of that classroom your face was red and your eyes forward with purpose i don’t know what happened, but in some ways i understand i almost sneered, happy in someone’s pain but i am not a cruel beast, even when i should be i was confused at first, not knowing all theContinue reading “i am giving myself redemption”
petty heart
i am sorry i knew you as an acquaintance we worked on the same plane but barely talked you have pissed me off, yes for sure but i should not hate you, not anyone i apologize for the filth i spoke you never knew but it weighs on me all over a pretty boy andContinue reading “petty heart”
he stares at me while i eat, he follows me where i walk
it takes courage to tell your fears your worries, your concerns especially to someone in charge i hesitated as i said a name and that someone in charge knew exactly who it was And said many others had felt the same i had many questions why this and why that why is he still hereContinue reading “he stares at me while i eat, he follows me where i walk”
ask a girl and i bet she can tell you a story just the same
remember the day we wandered around a store happy, go lucky, no fear or care in the world because that was our town and scary things don’t really happen in our town and then he came up and talked to me my whole body went cold and i wanted to cry as i forced myselfContinue reading “ask a girl and i bet she can tell you a story just the same”
laugh
i laugh in spite as people do not know who i really am Not that i would say my problems and impede them but it is only so funny that they actually believe my mask
power
oh teeth how terrible you didn’t grow into fangs oh eyes how terrible you don’t glow with celestial fury oh shoulders how terrible you did not sprout endless wings
a poet's confessional 