i hate myself for relying on youi hate myself for thinking of you in too many momentswishing for things that are nothing but fantasyi am not a fool, a witless pitying thing, full of sorrows over something that has been written about for centuriesi do not wish to weep for this, to rage for this,Continue reading “i will regret this one, but for now it is my truth”
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pedestal
in my delusioned stupormy ego screams for agony, for strife, for everything to sate itit demands wrath, it demands harsh words, and nothing but silence as an answerand i feed the corrupted thing, it bolsters me for a timeit tells me i am the only, i am the wiseand it tells the person who setContinue reading “pedestal”
what i fear the most
somewhere i see someone with my eyes, yet not my owni see them with my wit, my wisdom, and strength, yet they have not methey are clean, free of burden and perfectwith none of the world’s stainthey are from a small part of me, but all their ownand they will love me, somehow, such anContinue reading “what i fear the most”
surrender
for you i know i would give more than i ever havewhich is a testament to all that i have giveni know that i will do it without hesitation, without recallso, i, as proud as i can be,bow my head and begdo not take my giving as a kindness and cast it awaydo not leaveContinue reading “surrender”
drown
i curl my lips into a smileand dig my nails deepi am something you can drown inand as you sink further and further you will know that i am something you can never get enough ofi will give you that smile that shattersand you will know that you’ll drown with nothing but pleasure in yourContinue reading “drown”
the tower
death for love is such a fool’s thoughtbecause one was lost and tossed asidesuch agony left behind will only led to morei will only bury the memories in a deep and cold graveand i shall build a tower for more than another but for oneselffools die for lovethe wise live for more opportunities to love
amazonian
do you know who i am? i have brandished my steel in the form of screams i have bled into ivory bowls to satisfy and slicked back my hair with the blood of those who stand before me i smell of iron and death i have taken love and consumed it i have taken respectContinue reading “amazonian”
truth or lie?
throughout my life time i have become so good at lying to others, to my friends, my family, to myself that when i feel something i ask, “am i just lying?” lying to please and reassure others lying to make sure no one is concerned lying through smiling teeth because everyone else matters lying toContinue reading “truth or lie?”
hunger and hunger
i can never have enough an empty hole that can never be satisfied even when the sun is high and the time is many (it is especially consuming when the wind chills my bones and the time is short) i long for it, wish for it but never hold it close when i have itContinue reading “hunger and hunger”
odysseus in remembrance
when you say you are proud of me for certain thing that thing, that ugly, bloody thing that it is gone from me, rid from me, cleansed from me i sadly smile it is never gone, my love it comes on wings and gnashing sharp teeth when the tears run rivers down my face andContinue reading “odysseus in remembrance”
a poet's confessional 