thewandereroftheworlds

careless

do not say those words that sentence you carelessly use when your own daughter wants her blood drained out on the floor

it takes every ounce every single ounce of my being not to shake not to claw not to tear and rip not to scream not to unleash the person that i truly am life is masquerade and you don’t want to be the one to tear off the mask when the little dance ends

runaway

i want to run away i will send curses to the earth that bore me and return to the sky that loved me

i remember every time

i will sacrifice all for you before you even sacrifice a fraction for me

mother

you ask if i remember i do, i remember the day and year i lost the woman who carried me in her body and birthed me into this world i barely remember her looks but i know she was more beautiful than all the stars in the night sky i barely remember her voice aContinue reading “mother”

sleep

i let you sleep that night when everything was crushing me a suffering beyond the point of recognition and i simply stared darkness right in eye i shouldn’t have let you sleep i should have begged you to stay awake and try to save me

lies

you know living for someone is a l i e people disappoint, make mistakes, and only think for themselves trust me, i know so as i try to live for someone you will see this scarred form of flesh live but you will watch this beautiful mind die

selfish

i don’t understand if i am being selfish as i write these words in the end they are all about me complaining about myself and others i am being selfish and it a terrible thing a terrible emotion that makes me hate myself selfish, yet again

sad truth

death is easier than life

in the end i have no one

you have him to go to when everything goes wrong i am happy for you but there is a dark part of me that burns with something horrible i am selfish and greedy and remember it all you have him now to cry to but i remember when you came to me and i cameContinue reading “in the end i have no one”