thewandereroftheworlds

you made your choice

i am not angry with her no, no, i am not, even when others tell me i should be i am angry with him, i suppose for making the wrong decision

i tell you

i have loved many men, i tell you with dark hair and endless eyes but in the end, i tell you they never love me the woman with golden hair and storm-filled eyes

you and i see each other sitting in uncomfortable green chairs as a hulking man drones on or sitting in too small desks as others howl with laughter your feet tap i have no idea if you are nervous or just long to stand and be free i pick my nails i have no ideaContinue reading “eyes”

outsider

i am an outsider amongst powerful women who’s voices are among the angels who are powerful in emotion and singing i came late to this group an outsider i feel even though they do not tell me that i am i feel it especially when they speak of the others who appeared with me lateContinue reading “outsider”

new year’s resolution

this new years i will not lie to myself and give false hope nothing will magically change as the calendar changes no matter how much I will it to be i will remain in this cursed house with my drunk father with my echoing thoughts and no one to understand but i will try iContinue reading “new year’s resolution”

mutual

dear 2019 i walk to you unprepared your predecessor left me a changed woman i became stronger in the beginning and remain but in your first moments i come to you suffering and broken there is no tears but my heart aches and i can’t breathe but you know, i will fight on another dayContinue reading “mutual”

fiction

i must accept the reality before me i must sit each day and accept but in the night i deny and deny i live in fiction to hide the pain

i am giving myself redemption

you ran out of that classroom your face was red and your eyes forward with purpose i don’t know what happened, but in some ways i understand i almost sneered, happy in someone’s pain but i am not a cruel beast, even when i should be i was confused at first, not knowing all theContinue reading “i am giving myself redemption”

petty heart

i am sorry i knew you as an acquaintance we worked on the same plane but barely talked you have pissed me off, yes for sure but i should not hate you, not anyone i apologize for the filth i spoke you never knew but it weighs on me all over a pretty boy andContinue reading “petty heart”

he stares at me while i eat, he follows me where i walk

it takes courage to tell your fears your worries, your concerns especially to someone in charge i hesitated as i said a name and that someone in charge knew exactly who it was And said many others had felt the same i had many questions why this and why that why is he still hereContinue reading “he stares at me while i eat, he follows me where i walk”