thewandereroftheworlds

headache

i tell myself to not let my emotions weaken me but here i am alone in a bed, weeping in a quiet room as those emotions consume me

red eyes

i know that it is love when it hurts this much

goodbye

i will always fight a bitter fight between me, myself, and i where i want to tear my flesh from my bones and tear my brain and cast it away i understand reality and yet deny it all the same

my old torments greet me kindly

foolish girl who thought this was going to be easier you were wrong

strangely enough i did not write a poem at the start of 2021 i was happy and in the arms of the one i love a midnight where i did not weep but loved 2020 took and took my family, my freedom, and so much more it took a pandemic for me to realize thingsContinue reading “2021”

dystopian historian

some of you must remember that the future always watches how will history look at you in a century a liberator, a tyrant, a rebel, a dictator because in the past they saw themselves right and now we see them as wrong remember the wisdom, the grace, the goodness because in the future people willContinue reading “dystopian historian”

i pluck, i pull, i curse, i weep

i am not sure if i will ever be comfortable in these bones no matter what the world says or the words of those who love me i see the at my skin and snarl at the folds too soft this body is i feel the itch at my skin and wish to slice offContinue reading “i pluck, i pull, i curse, i weep”

future of fragility

my future is that of fragility one never center, one never set i wish for schooling for a decade, as strange as it may be because knowledge is my weapon and i will always wish to sharpen it then to be the teacher of those after of me of the weapon i have known becauseContinue reading “future of fragility”

love cry

hey, i just wanted to say thank you and i love you you have made me grow from what i once was to something so much more bright you make me happy like i have never felt before and i wish for it to never end you care for me, truly, and that fact willContinue reading “love cry”

crisis of future

everyone has the right to crisis at this age of what the hell we’re doing if any of it matters so i understand because i have to explain why studying history matters to the world and explain how it makes money, rather than how it makes me happy with knowledge i have to reassure myselfContinue reading “crisis of future”