consequences

“if you ever need anything, call me”
“if you are not feeling good  don’t hesitate to talk to me” 
“if you are depressed again, just tell me and i can help”
that is what they all say
“i will, i promise.” i reply as a stare into an empty bowl
my words are lies
because i never ask for help
even when i need it
i wish they would know
because i know the consequences of speaking