new year’s resolution

this new years i will not lie to myself
and give false hope
nothing will magically change as the calendar changes
no matter how much I will it to be
i will remain in this cursed house
with my drunk father
with my echoing thoughts
and no one to understand
but i will try
i will fight with my shredded nails
and sharpened teeth
to remain here
and look for the brighter things